i bid farewell to my beloved arizona tomorrow morning. im not excited about being in utah for the rest of the winter. arizona has been absolutely incredible in terms of the weather. provo is simply bad at having good weather. im really not looking forward to the cold and the snow and all that. although it is nice knowing that i dont have school to go to every day, so my only exposure to the elements will be exercise. that actually is a good thought. i had lunch with a dear friend from high school today. it was a lot of fun to catch up and talk about stuff. sometimes i forget how much other people mean to me. its bad. anyway, on to reporting:
mind. so i finished conquer the chaos yesterday. tomorrow, for the ride up, i will be listening to :
i have had this series recommended to me more times than ive recommended conquer the chaos, and ive actually had the privilege of working with much of the gkic team (they use infusionsoft), so im excited to finally dive in and see what all the fuss is about. i hear its good stuff.
im also delving into web development as another branch of my mental development. eric gave me some pointers today and brad is giving me some direction. i want to be the guy that people come to when they want cool stuff done for their businesses. really, i want to be the guy that everyone thinks of when they think of custom infusionsoft programming, because that will drive a lot of business our way, even if we dont sell any custom programming at all. just the image will drive business our way. most of that is driven by a small feeling that i dont really contribute to the business in a lastingly meaningful way, because ive always just been a drone that could do things. i want to step up and be a contributor and pull my weight, so i want to become something that has weight and then pull baby pull!
body.
well, today was not a good day in terms of eating. lets just say i had about 200 calories left and then i ate a bunch of pizza. right now im 1500 calories over my limit for today. no good.
i think maybe after tomorrow well start to see some real results. once i can get into a workout regime and life gets into a rhythm. i just need to be better about sticking to my calorie budget.
soul.
i think i may have made a small break-through on this. i dont think im any closer to where i want to be, but i may be getting closer to figuring out how to get there. i started talking about this a little bit in yesterdays post, but i wanted to talk about it a little more here.
ive spent my whole life 'kicking against the pricks'. i dont like accepting conventions, and therefore i dont do things that most people do. in fact, i do so little of what most people do that ive decided i cant really consider myself a real person. im just sort of a mass of flesh and nebulous, ethereal philosophy, and so i tend to be incompatible with the world. its basically like im that mouse (computer mouse) that everyone has in their computer cord box, that was made before mice were all changed to usb, and i refuse to upgrade. the whole world is operating on a different standard than i am, and i simply refuse to adapt to it. hence the 'prick-kicking'. but i realized the other day that while in some ways thats an advantage in life, in most ways its just stupid. so ive decided to become a real person, and upgrade to the conventional system and live as a part of the world, not just in observation of it.
and thats that.
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